so, i'm actually sick of feeling like crap now. being stuck in this stupid house is driving me crazy; i've got nothing to do, no money to do it with and no job to get money from.
i've felt this cabin fever before, a few summers ago. granted, the situation was worse then but the sheer fact that i'm doing the same as that year gets me into the same mindset as i was back then. as if i'm worthless and of no earthly good to anyone.
to be honest i just feel sorry for tom, he's the one that has to deal with me being like this, not speaking or locking myself in the bathroom while i cry. i have to admit he is coping with it amazingly; but how long until he stops wanting to cope? i mean, he shouldn't have to; a crazy girlfriend who does all this stupid stuff isn't the usual.
i don't know what i'd do without him xoxo
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